I brought my Rare Note book a few days ago, and decided that note book to be my Personal Diary, meaning I will rarely post in here anymore. Cos some of my post affected some people's mood, and I don't wanna see that happened again. So decided to write in Diary.. I can also write my deepest darkest secret in there too. XP
Have fun~
Exams are over but why am I still so restless ? Hmm... Lets keep it to myself... =(
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♥ SHORT NOTES
..notes which you may want to remember..
...Why Smile Always?
Remember to SmilE AlwayS,
cos your trouble will be kept away..
Have a positive mind, cos if you have a positive mind, 90% of the things which happen to you latter on will also be positive too :)
Don't believe me ?? then try it out !
No harm will be done :D
...Love Is...
Love is like the AIR,
you could FEEL it,
but you can't SEE it...
Love is like CANDY,
once you FALL,
you CAN'T GET OUT...
...Love Is...is not/never...
Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offense and is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes..
♥ ABOUT ME
..this is all you need
to know about me..
to know about me..
...My Intro,
-> Name is Bok Sheng, male.
-> Nicknames is Piggy.
-> 18 is my age for this year.
-> Remember this, 16 Jan..its my DOB.
-> Currently in a lovely reationship with Rachel Koh =D
-> Currently having two wonderful Mei and a Di Di ^^ ,Xiu Wen, Doreen and Christopher.
-> Currently in the SmilealwayS Family.
-> Waiting for Poly courses results
♥ MY SMILE ALWAYS FAMILY
..a happy Family..
=> Mummy: Rachel Dar Dar
=> Dadddy: Me Me
=> Daughter: Jillyn, Nuer (Stella)
Family created on 17 November 2008
♥ ♥ Dar Dar ♥ ♥
♥ Daughter ♥
..baby remember to keep a look out for this page..
=) SmilE AlwayS =D
Deeply in love with Dar Dar ^^
Lovely Life started at 25 SEP 2008
♥ RACHEL Dar Dar ♥
Dreams...
♥FOR DARLING♥:
-> Go Timezone Zone with Darling. []
-> Eat in Seoul Garden with Dar Dar. []
-> Buy that lovely couple ring from Couple Lab. [6 Jan 2008]
-> Buy the adorable couple wallet in Lot 1. []
-> Buy that couple handphone pouch in More Than Words. [6 Jan 2008]
-> Buy a pair of headset. []
-> Buy the same handphone strap. []
-> Watch movie together. []
-> Went to Lot One shopping. []
-> Spend a full day out with Dar Dar. []
-> Spend my Birthday with Baby. [16 Jan 2008]
-> Eat in Sakae Sushi with Baby. [16 Jan 2008]
-> Do well for exams. [18 Jan 2008]
-> Spend a day in Sentosa with Baby. [10 Feb 2008/ 26 Feb 2008]
-> Spend a day in Zoo with Baby.
-> Study for exams.
-> Score a A+ for most of the subject.
-> Eat in Seoul Garden with Dar Dar again & again.
-> Spend a full day in the beach with Dar Dar.
-> Take ALL Dar Dar moody things away.
-> Fulfill most of Dar Dar's dream.
-> Love Dar Dar forever.
-> Be with Dar Dar forever.
♥ DREAM LIST
..something which will make my life better..
I am a guy full of dreams...
ACADEMIC:
-> Get into Ngee Ann Poly, IT course.
TECHNOLOGY & GAME:
-> Best PDA phone.
-> Own a PSP.
-> Own the entire The Sims 2 games.
-> Buy the game: Need For Speed Undercover(release in the 16/11/2008)
-> Buy a Sony headset.
-> Own the HP gaming laptop.
-> Buying a 8GB memory card for my phone.
-> Buy the game: The Sims 3(release in 2009 March)
FAVOURITE ITEMS:
-> Big Nike bag.
-> Nike bottle.
PERSONAL:
-> Ask Rachel for BGR.
-> Find my dream girl.
-> Have God Sister.
-> Hope nothing will depress me in year 2008.
-> Ask Jillyn Mei to be my Dar Dar & I de god daugther.
-> Have my upcoming Birthday party in Sentosa.
-> Have one Dream God Jie Jie.
-> Grow fatter.
...and more to come...
♥ TAGBOARD
..have anything to say..
| What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either! | |
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New Diary is Born~
5:07 PM - Saturday, August 22, 2009
For Mei,
12:25 PM - Sunday, August 16, 2009
Sigh, I know you wanna make me happy, you don't want me to be sad and stuff like that. I can see that you trying very hard to make me happy, the fact is, I am happy since Thursday, you can it from my past post, its the truth. And there is something else you might wanna know, I just scared that you continue to be my Mei cos you wanna make me happy, then when I a already happy, you will leave me, I scared that will happen, that explains my Display pictures, and stuff like that. So ya. I am glad that I got such Mei who try all her best to make me happy. :)
I am sad not because of your presence, its just the past memories, even if you disappear from my world now, it will do me no good in both long and short term, it will just make me more sad, hope you understand.
I am sad not because of your presence, its just the past memories, even if you disappear from my world now, it will do me no good in both long and short term, it will just make me more sad, hope you understand.
Another Day Passed
10:21 PM - Saturday, August 15, 2009
It had been a hard day, so far I am feeling fine since morning, except just now almost cry again, its just almost only. This is the first time when I still kept in contact with my ex girlfriend, so there are somethings which I don't get used to it. So ya..
She seems more moody after we broke off, she should have been happy, cos she got what she wanted, I gave her what she wanted, but she still not happy, instead, her mood goes deeper. All the bad habits started to show up, but I can understand. Just hope she can be happy, there is a sentence which goes like this "If you love that person very much, you should takes whatever it takes to make her happy", I guess I done that, this is what she wanted, and she had it now. So please do cheer up, and be happy, cos you are happy, you got what you wanted. Never mind what I wanted, if your happy, I will try to be happy.
She seems more moody after we broke off, she should have been happy, cos she got what she wanted, I gave her what she wanted, but she still not happy, instead, her mood goes deeper. All the bad habits started to show up, but I can understand. Just hope she can be happy, there is a sentence which goes like this "If you love that person very much, you should takes whatever it takes to make her happy", I guess I done that, this is what she wanted, and she had it now. So please do cheer up, and be happy, cos you are happy, you got what you wanted. Never mind what I wanted, if your happy, I will try to be happy.
Sigh
8:00 AM
Now school lessons are officially ended, the upcoming week suppose to be study week, meaning no school lessons. But my exam are in the study week, Friday and Saturday. If she is still my girlfriend, then we would be happy since tomorrow, cos no lessons therefore having more time together, to enjoy and study and have fun. But sigh, no more such things, no more such fun. Its like an meaningless holiday to me now. But we are doing great now, as Kor and Mei, I think its a good thing ba. We still can spend the holidays together, but we can't have that fun as compared to last time and what I had in mind. Last time we could go anywhere we want, no need to care much about the money we spend in total, but now we need. Sigh.
My morning really sucks, came to NP alone, then while crossing the over head bridge, in front of me there is 3 couples in a row, and no body else, holding hands and walk, it makes me feel like wanna cry, it reminded me of the past, they are so lucky. The feeling really SUCKS!
Now a days I rarely go recall the memories, even I did, sometimes its kinda faded away, no feelings for it already. And I also rarely crying over it. I think its a good news right? I don't even sure about it. It feels weird, feel weird walking in NP not holding hands. Now I may feel nothing, but when she found a boyfriend, my moods will start to change like mad, so its best for me to start my poly life all over again. Never been hurt so badly like this. Ya, my classmate is right, its like leaving a deep cut in my heart, and it can't be mend, I guess. But I will still be strong, will try my best.
My morning really sucks, came to NP alone, then while crossing the over head bridge, in front of me there is 3 couples in a row, and no body else, holding hands and walk, it makes me feel like wanna cry, it reminded me of the past, they are so lucky. The feeling really SUCKS!
Now a days I rarely go recall the memories, even I did, sometimes its kinda faded away, no feelings for it already. And I also rarely crying over it. I think its a good news right? I don't even sure about it. It feels weird, feel weird walking in NP not holding hands. Now I may feel nothing, but when she found a boyfriend, my moods will start to change like mad, so its best for me to start my poly life all over again. Never been hurt so badly like this. Ya, my classmate is right, its like leaving a deep cut in my heart, and it can't be mend, I guess. But I will still be strong, will try my best.
BLOODY HURT
7:40 PM - Thursday, August 13, 2009
I damn hurt now. Maybe just now I shouldn't send my Mei back to her house step, If I never do that, then all of these will not happened, I will not be feeling this way now. Felt like crying in MRT train just now. I don't know why, of all stairs, that couple just have to be at that staircase, it makes me recall deep, damn deep, and also hurt my damn deep. Cos we used to do that the last time, but now? It made me recall, it made hurt, DAMN HURT! WHY MUST I GO THROUGH ALL THIS ?! I DAMN REGRET! I should have listened to my friend's advice 5 months ago , serve me right! Now I got dumped my my own girlfriend, serve me right, damn bloody right! Happy now?! I still even tell them, it will not happen just like the way they thought, but now? I don't even have the face to talk to them. Got dump by a stupid reason. How great is my life. Damn great!
I just want to transfer Poly, I wanna start my Poly life over again, but will miss my friends, do I have a choice? I am being pushed to this choice, no other way out. It maybe a selfish idea, but humans can be selfish, just like you, your damn more selfish than me. The hurt will forever remain in my heart, I don't know how to get rid of it, I just don't know how, all I know is this time I don't need to get over it, I can just dump it aside. I wanna dump it aside, then start my life over again. ITS FREAKING HURTFUL! Never been so hurt before. The feeling I bet not most people experience, especially you. The sentence said by you in the morning, I thought everything was happy and we can move on, but the next day what the hell I got ? BLOODY HURT! F-ING HURT IN MY LIFE! The pain is pulling me to hell! To a place of pain and hurt. And I can't even f-ing control it. Why I need to go through all these? Just f-ing tell me why. I may treat you badly, but you did also treat me badly, you forced me changed, then now when everything seems fine, you dumped me. I really don't know wtf to do now, I am so damn lost, not like I wanted it, I never wanted it. AND I WANT TO GET OUT OF IT! I F-ING WANT TO! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!
I just want to transfer Poly, I wanna start my Poly life over again, but will miss my friends, do I have a choice? I am being pushed to this choice, no other way out. It maybe a selfish idea, but humans can be selfish, just like you, your damn more selfish than me. The hurt will forever remain in my heart, I don't know how to get rid of it, I just don't know how, all I know is this time I don't need to get over it, I can just dump it aside. I wanna dump it aside, then start my life over again. ITS FREAKING HURTFUL! Never been so hurt before. The feeling I bet not most people experience, especially you. The sentence said by you in the morning, I thought everything was happy and we can move on, but the next day what the hell I got ? BLOODY HURT! F-ING HURT IN MY LIFE! The pain is pulling me to hell! To a place of pain and hurt. And I can't even f-ing control it. Why I need to go through all these? Just f-ing tell me why. I may treat you badly, but you did also treat me badly, you forced me changed, then now when everything seems fine, you dumped me. I really don't know wtf to do now, I am so damn lost, not like I wanted it, I never wanted it. AND I WANT TO GET OUT OF IT! I F-ING WANT TO! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!
Feeling Much Better Now
11:58 PM - Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Hmm.. My life had been better now. No more those past memories feelings, might be I never look back the pictures, I guess. But whatever! No mood to love already. Just enjoy life I guess. Then wait for my dream girl to appear again. XP
I know I high now, after awhile I will emo de.. Don't know why~ =P
SmilE AlwayS =)
I know I high now, after awhile I will emo de.. Don't know why~ =P
SmilE AlwayS =)
Good or Bad Day ?
11:35 PM
Today...started out bad, but its my fault cos of last night moody, Sorry Sorry. T.T
Today PON lesson!! Cos go also do nothing, must as well take a break before the two upcoming exams, C programming and Inter Networking (killer).
When out to eat in AMK after Mei Mei's presentation, ate Pepper Lunch! I first time when into it and eat! HAHA!! Last time used to walk passed only. Its fun, kinda like Seoul Garden! and of cos very hot to eat, almost lost my tongue there. :X Before eating, we brought movie tickets to watch UP!
After Lunch, went to the capsules machine, WOW, there is a lot there. Recalled last time the capsules machine only less than $1, but now getting very expensive le, compared to last time, brought one NDS pen, but its suitable for my phone, so just brought it~
Then when to watch movies, funny movie. XD
We was like a shaking "couple", its so COLD~~ But never bring jacket. :X Hehe.. so shake lor.. XD
Then after it, we went home~ Not much.
Just now studied Programming, tomorrow got EXAM!! Wish me luck! XP
Studying and yet planning what to do during the holidays~ Planning to ask my BUSY Jie and Mei Mei out! XP And have fun~! WAHAHA!!
Thats all for now~~ X)
Today PON lesson!! Cos go also do nothing, must as well take a break before the two upcoming exams, C programming and Inter Networking (killer).
When out to eat in AMK after Mei Mei's presentation, ate Pepper Lunch! I first time when into it and eat! HAHA!! Last time used to walk passed only. Its fun, kinda like Seoul Garden! and of cos very hot to eat, almost lost my tongue there. :X Before eating, we brought movie tickets to watch UP!
After Lunch, went to the capsules machine, WOW, there is a lot there. Recalled last time the capsules machine only less than $1, but now getting very expensive le, compared to last time, brought one NDS pen, but its suitable for my phone, so just brought it~
Then when to watch movies, funny movie. XD
We was like a shaking "couple", its so COLD~~ But never bring jacket. :X Hehe.. so shake lor.. XD
Then after it, we went home~ Not much.
Just now studied Programming, tomorrow got EXAM!! Wish me luck! XP
Studying and yet planning what to do during the holidays~ Planning to ask my BUSY Jie and Mei Mei out! XP And have fun~! WAHAHA!!
Thats all for now~~ X)
♥ ARCHIVES
..my past..
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
May 2009
July 2009
August 2009
♥ LINKS
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♥♥ RACHEL ♥♥
♥ Wen Qi Jie Jie ♥
DOREEN mei mei
XIU WEN mei mei
CHRISTOPHER di di
Diana
Jillyn
Yi Yan
Amanda
Eereena
Joanne
Wendy
Wing